Sometimes Lonely Nites

Men! Do they all want to have their cake and eat it too? I am still so confused about this whole Jason situation. I can't figure it out. We have the best time when we are out and lately we have had some amazing talks, but I need more than this. I need to have some type of commitment. There is no commitment at all, we are more like friends with benefits. A little deeper than that, but still about the same. We both know what we want, and most things are the same, but with him just getting out of his relationship with *her* about 4 months ago he is not ready for a relationship. I know this, and I have told him I can wait, but the waiting is killing me. How long does it take? She really did a number on him. He isn't quite so sure of himself now and he thinks every woman is out to hurt him. He told me last weekend that he is afraid of another relationship and I told him not everyone wants to hurt him. So for that one I got a "Yeah well I've heard that before". So yes, we have all heard it before and we all get hurt anyway, but I have never done anything to hurt him, not in 3 years and I wouldn't ever do anything to hurt him. At least not on purpose. I am *SO* into him. The more time I spend with him and the more we talk and do things the more I care about him and the more I want to be with him. I could see myself married to him. Not in the near future, but I could see it in the distant future. I hope he feels the same way and can see the same things. He is not going to find someone who will treat him the way I do and the way I always would. Keep your fingers crossed for me. I have a few more weeks with no kiddos to convince him of this.

I hope you are all having a wonderful summer! I have missed talking to you all! I have been busy with work and this whole *non*relationship thing that I haven't had time to really pop in on the boards lately. I hope to be able to post more at the cottage really soon! I love you all!