I am *SO* in love....

Yes, I know, I am a bad, bad blogger!

I love him! I just love him. And he finally knows! I don't say it to him, although I wish he were listening when I hang up the phone every night. I don't go all sappy and make him uncomfortable. But I am there, I listen, I talk, I look him in the eyes, I love him. More than any one I have ever cared about in that way. Had I known years ago that this is what true love feels like, I would never have married Glen. I have never felt like this before. It is the most amazing and wonderful feeling in the world. To walk past his desk at work and have him smile, to stand outside at lunch talking to him, to hear my phone ring and it be his "special" tone, my heart just jumps and bounces everywhere. He makes me feel special. I know he care, would almost swear he loves me as well, but he is still so scared to open up and let me all the way in. My goal is to be there by Christmas. He finally met mom. It was awesome. That was his idea, I had been asking him to meet her for months. He said, "Well I guess it is time she puts a face with the name" and I said true. She LOVED him. My mother actually liked him! That is saying alot, she NEVER likes anyone that I have dated. EVER! They talked and laughed, and she would throw her head back and put her hand on his arm. I am so blessed! While talking to mom, he happened to look over at the counter and see my cute little dry erase board that I had so lovingly written "I Love Jason" on. Well he picked it up, looked at it, turned it to me, looked at it again, and I ran like a chicken! Bye Mom! We have to go now! Ugh! I thought, this is it, it is over before it really began, but I have enjoyed the ride. He didn't say anything about it until we got to the restraunt. While walking to the door, he says, "So you love me" and I decided I might as well get it over with, let him know exactly how I feel and not put it off any longer. So I tell him "Yes, I do" and he says "I am not lovable" and I told him that is his opinion. He didn't mention it again until later that night. We went to a local lake and drove around for a while talking. He asked me why I love him and what is it about him that I like so much. So I told him. I didn't let him get a word in edgewise. I just kept telling him everything. His eyes, his smile, his outlook on life, the way he treats my kids, the way he makes me feel, his honesty, the way he is all about his family, his loyalty. He just sat there and listened to it all. And when I was finished, he put his hand on my leg while I was driving. I won't go into details about what happened after that, but let's just say it was amazing and he is the one who started it and finished it. He is so amazing. I want to be his so bad. I hope that he loves me even half as much as I love him. I want to marry this man, and I swore I'd never want to marry anyone again. I want to be with him for the rest of my life, I want to grow old with him. I want to have his children. Send me lots of good love vibes and keep us in your thoughts!